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And when I dream of you it makes me sad
I wonder where you are, you make me mad
'Cause I don't know what I should say or do
Don't wanna live again what we've been through

Your ignorance - it scares me more each day
And how I wish I found some words to say
'Cause I'm expecting not to hear from you
And nothing happens if nothing I do

How come they've all been great except for me?
And what the fuck would you want me to be?
You really don't deserve any of this
I wanna shoot you, but I'm sure I'd miss...

Don't get me wrong, believe me, love has gone
In my own mirror I look like a stone
You've left me cold, indifferent, empty, dim,
With all my feelings pushed to the extreme.

And love is hate and hate is love, it's true
When all else fails I'm running straight to you
I laugh, I cry, I cry, I laugh, I'm nuts
I hate, I love, I love, I hate your guts!

Far too well

I had to stop there for a while

And just stare at the stars

No radio, no sounds, ‘cause I’ll

Imagine the guitars

I need a mirror on my windows

So I can hear my thoughts

As I sit back, oh, my mind knows

I’m loving these weird spots

of red on my skin

when my heart decides to spin

in its head, on its own,

spitting images I’ve known

far too well, far too well, far too well

I catch my breath and light my last smoke

of regret

You’re as cold as a stone, yet you make all my senses burn

I’ll accept

If it takes only few to a million tears,

been there, cried them all

I’ll catch you if takes facing my deepest and darkest fears

or watch you when you fall

back to your sense, ‘cause, you see, we can’t go on like that

You think you’ve got it all

Of  your shit and your plans put together and figured out

It’s not your call!

late at night when it’s dark, I’m alone and I’m almost asleep

and I wish it was you

You’ll be here ‘cause you’ll want to hold on and to forever keep

that shiny, spicy glue

of red on your skin

when your heart decides to spin

in its head, on its own,

spitting images you’ve known

far too well, far too well, far too well

Four years, or was it five?

Four years long

Four years strong

No longer me

No longer you

No longer we

How do you do?

I’m just writing to make you mine

I’m checking you out – hope that’s fine

You’re pretty cool, I know you well

I’ve eaten all the shit you sell

You drive me nuts, though, and sometimes

I feel like spitting those cute eyes

Especially since this sick disguise

Can only see me with no price

You’re faking faking a sweet glance

I sit there, near your punk-ass fence

You’re full of lies, and charm, and shit

I still hear your breath bit by beat

Driving me crazy with its dare

I’d kill you, oh I swear, I swear,

It’s not that I don’t think you’re great

and perfect, but you’re four years late

And goddamn, did I try to fit

Thoroughly, step by step, in it

Your godly, magic, universe

I think of it, I need to curse

So fuck this shit we’re doing in my mind

And fuck your tendency to be fake and unkind

And fuck! You once knew, you mind reader!

You weren’t good then, aren’t good now either

It doesn’t end here, hear me out!

You should know what this is about

But hurry the fuck up, already

Learn that my nerves aren’t so steady

Ceva nou

Been staying up late                          

For no reason at all

Just wasting time, fate                       

gave us freedom to fall

Don’t say goodbye, mate! 

Please don’t forget to call

and say hello, oh, oh, oh, u, oh

Spent all my worst nights

and my best ones so far

Some ended with fights,

some with whiskey in a jar

It’s only weird now,

I can’t sleep here, in my car

anymore, oh, oh, oh, oh

Catching my breath for a moment

Before the chorus kicks in

Got no patience, got no patience ‘till you count to five

And I can’t wait, no, I can’t wait for you to feel as much alive

Get my keys, hey! Throw my keys, we’re going for a drive

But 80 miles an hour’s too slow

We’re only singing live

‘ve quit smoking three times,

Had all the reasons to drink

And though nothing rhymes

I’ve spent some hours to think

I won’t forget you

How you threw up in my sink

We had it all, oh, oh, oh, u, oh

I yelled “oh, shit!”, shit!

We’re outta line yet again

Got out, had to hit

the road and get on the train

And I’m so happy

That this last line is in vain

And it’s done

Got no patience, got no patience ‘till you count to five

And I can’t wait, no, I can’t wait for you to feel as much alive

Get my keys, hey! Throw my keys, we’re going for a drive

But 80 miles an hour’s too slow

We’re only singing live

Ceva

I’ve turned the lights off for some time

Can’t even read my thoughts – your mind

Is dwelling too much on the past

My cigarette’s consumed too fast

The ordinary “please don’t tell”

Hasn’t been working out so well

In fact it’s not at all polite

To be somebody else at night

Made sure your victims are in sight

If it feels right then you will fight

And you don’t have to fire a light

‘Cause you’re somebody else at night

It’s rather simple once you know

To enter, conquer, then just go

And even those who start out strong

Get cracked up ‘cause it feels so wrong

You laugh out loud at those who care

You’re so cool, darling, but beware

That memories will begin to bite

If you’re somebody else at night

Hmm...

It is still night, but I know
That the light will show up
What will it truly show
Since we've had that last drop?

My dear friend, I'm clueless
About what's going on
In my head all this mess
Ought to vanish 'till dawn

Nothing feels truly new
But nothing's truly familiar
From my mind's point of view
It's getting grosser and sillier

Still feel so caught up
I still feel so ashamed
My heart's rush just won't stop
Since the best are the blamed

How I entered this race
Is not tough to conceive
In my dream it took place
In my dreams I believe

But my dreams won't come back
Not tonight - no, they won't
Tried to cut my eyes some slack
I say 'close!' , but they just don't

'Cause if they do I'll break the vow
To never ever think of you
It hasn't been working 'till now
It's awfully 5:22.

Pam pam pam

Today’s a better day, I feel
So much closer to a plan
Today I’ve made a new real deal:
To build back what was then

‘Cause years don’t pass by just like that
They teach you to be strong
And I believe that now I’ll get
To prove timing was wrong

‘Cause after this time I still miss
To hear and hold you tight
And I can’t let a love like this
Be gone without a fight

I need one moment with your eyes
I’ll try to share this view
I’ll show you what was really there
And maybe you’ll do, too

But please think: it was wrong, the start
I really don’t want more
And if I can’t get to your heart
We’ll leave it like before

Maybe it’s not even meant to be
And it was just a phase
But what if what you did to me
Was wrong in all the ways?

October 4th

The midnight's close and I can feel,
I swear,all of your pain
Tonight's darkness,it will reveal
The fact that we're insane

There's too much talk and too much hate
It's way simpler than that
But we all love to complicate
The fact that there's no fact

Searching for proof,struggling to win
The fights that we invent
The sun's too warm,the ice's too thin
The messages-all sent!

Talk unity and peace and love
Then look round and condemn
As long as we think we're above
We don't know shit 'bout them

We don't believe,we never trust
Our friend's word is in vain
The master plan-it is a must
'Cause we've all gone insane

Telepathy

I cannot move my legs tonight
I cannot move my arms tonight
I’m safe here
Can only open my eyes to you
I see your face...You have no clue!
We’re safe here
Tonight

Just breathe me near and near me
Just hold on tight, we could be
The saviors of ourselves tonight
We’re safe here!
Crumbling through the past old fears
Ending together over the years
Just look at things that come and go
As people disappear

Don’t care about my legs tonight
Don’t care about my arms tonight
You’re safe here!
I only care that I can see
I’m seeing your face next to me and
We’re safe here
Tonight

I’ll watch your look, glad you’re here tonight
Your eyes, my heart, both say we might
Be safe here tonight
Hoping we’ll hold on tight to this…
Tonight

Daddy cool

The closest person to my heart
Ever since I’ve seen the light
Look how it’s all falling apart
Before I can begin to fight

It’s true, and now I have no doubt
It’s all been part of my sweet youth
The truth will certainly come out
Just when it stopped being the truth

Fate has no mercy for the fact that I
Am trying so hard to be better
So kind, so calm like you I’ll try
To write my overall life letter

Idealistic picture in my mind
Contains you smiling in the front line
So disappointed, still so calm, so kind
and loving, I’m so lucky you’re mine

I’m such a child, I make mistakes
Barely outlined my very first steps
Searching the past, lesson one thousand one
A strong, big heart – it never breaks

So much like you, so close to me
I miss you the very next second
Your gentle eyes I cannot see,
Your kindness that I’ve always reckoned

Strange feeling...

Not only that I left
But I also cried
Not only that it seemed
But it hurt inside

Not only that I'm mad
When my hair's a mess
But I'm really,really so sad
When my pleasure is your stress

Not only that you said you wanted
But I also heard
Not only that it was all for you
But that's what I preferred

Not only that I'll try to keep up
Guess I'll be less a kid
Not only don't I wanna grow up
But I'm so sad you did

Not only is this feeling new
But it is rarely strange
Not only for it's coming from you
But it's a drastic change

Not only that I needed it
But it made me feel you close
Not only that I lost it now
But it was overdose...

...for you...and I'm sorry

Self

How come you've changed
so much
so fast?
How come you've come
to judge
the rest?
How come you care
less
every day
About people - and what they say?

How come you've left
yourSELF
behind?
How come not smiling
crossed
your mind?
How come you're stepping
every
day
On people - and on what they say?

How come you're stressed
a suddden
lot?
How come you've passed
through this
last shot?
How much attention do you pay
To people - and to what they say?

How come you're staying
late
tonight?
How come your dark
seems to be
light?
How come you're that
who won't
obey
To people - and to what they say?

'Cause all good things seem to undo
Feelings lost territory,too
'Cause the same things always hurt you
...These people... - ...and the things they do...

The Rain

Such old, very old feelings
I'd tried to chase away
Have come back to their meanings
Because of you today

'Cause I've felt one step closer
Though you'd walked two steps back
'Cause I knew you'd go further
Were I to lose the track

Not facing feelings is a crime
But I wasn't too wise
And again,for the second time
I tried to close my eyes

But just one blink,and I could see
The light that you would spread
Before collapsing right between us
The stone wall had turned red...

Generation us

In fact we’re so lost
Someone always pays the cost
But what happens when there’s no one left around?
We can talk,’cause we’re smart
But we did forget the part
Where life’s more than enjoying each sound

Think we can rule the world
Never trust what we’re told
Many plans, many words, but no facts
So quick to get old,
Unconsciously sold
Something concrete-maybe gleaning regrets

Time passes by
We’re flying so high
What is it that we’re leaving behind?
These glances aren’t rude
We only wish we could
Change the world with the thoughts in our mind.

Inside

I fell asleep in my dream
You fell asleep by my side
I said before – To see I seem
But my eyes were half-opened wide

The peace inside I won’t forget
The moment I learned how to see
The things I do or don’t regret
Please live the(this) innocence with me

The will,the love,the sparkling fire
The looks,expressive smiles,the mood
Suppose they went down to the wire
Now would we find that bad or good?

Whenever I see people blinking,
Whatever gesture,things as such
The question is about the thinking
If it’s too little....or too much...

For me love,me

But times have changed
And I have changed with them
And you have changed with them as well
Words simply arranged
Arranged this time only
Do we say good-night?Only time will tell

The curtain fell
And I have risen with it
And you have waited for the fall again
Nervous applause
And I have cried for it
And you're happy,'cause now I think I can

So weird,wild feelings
And I have lived with them
And you have tried to wash them all away
So far we've gone
And you're still here with them
And we've flowed 'cause nothing was in the way
{[meant to make one stay]}

Look at me,look at you
And you will surely see me
And I will see myself as well
Just sit and watch
But which part of you
And which of me will wait for time to tell?

..:)

And it's because you took my hand
And felt that it's so right
And it's because you have decided
To fight for it that night

And it's because your smile was hiding
The things I love to hear
The dark is now no longer blinding
I have no fear

And it's because I feel like screaming
And running every here and there
And it's because I found a meaning
And there is nothing like your care

And it's because I've come to see
The happiness it brings
And it's because reality
's now nicer than the dreams

And it's because we lived today
And it was something so new
And it's because you are this way
...:)

Then

I feel so safe!
So safe!
So safe around you
That's why I'm afraid to try
That's why I'm afraid to tell you
That's why I'm afraid I'll lie...
...again...
...I'm reaching out for your hand
I'm glad that you call me 'friend'
It seems so far everything's fine
But I forgot to raise mine
[so you can see...]
I'm running to you again
For once hold me,hold my hand
I'm happy here with you,my friend
I'm here again.
Can you tell,oh,can you tell from my eyes?
Could you watch,please watch with me the sunrise!
Can you feel what I'm feeling right now?
Wonder how...

','

Maybe I don't see it 'cause it doesn't exist
Maybe it didn't come 'cause I did not insist
Maybe, oh , maybe you're so right
Maybe we also lost tonight....

; ; ;

My thoughts are blurry when I think about it
I hate it!
I hate
that I can’t live without it!

Makes me sick when I think
I’ve come again to face it
I hate it!
I hate
that I can’t live without it!

Makes me wanna fly off – never forget to think of
how
I hate it!
I LOVE IT!
...we’re gone...