Just words

Hmm...

2010-12-25T06:01:00.000-08:00

It is still night, but I know
That the light will show up
What will it truly show
Since we've had that last drop?

My dear friend, I'm clueless
About what's going on
In my head all this mess
Ought to vanish 'till dawn

Nothing feels truly new
But nothing's truly familiar
From my mind's point of view
It's getting grosser and sillier

Still feel so caught up
I still feel so ashamed
My heart's rush just won't stop
Since the best are the blamed

How I entered this race
Is not tough to conceive
In my dream it took place
In my dreams I believe

But my dreams won't come back
Not tonight - no, they won't
Tried to cut my eyes some slack
I say 'close!' , but they just don't

'Cause if they do I'll break the vow
To never ever think of you
It hasn't been working 'till now
It's awfully 5:22.

Pam pam pam

2010-12-02T15:58:00.000-08:00

Today’s a better day, I feel
So much closer to a plan
Today I’ve made a new real deal:
To build back what was then

‘Cause years don’t pass by just like that
They teach you to be strong
And I believe that now I’ll get
To prove timing was wrong

‘Cause after this time I still miss
To hear and hold you tight
And I can’t let a love like this
Be gone without a fight

I need one moment with your eyes
I’ll try to share this view
I’ll show you what was really there
And maybe you’ll do, too

But please think: it was wrong, the start
I really don’t want more
And if I can’t get to your heart
We’ll leave it like before

Maybe it’s not even meant to be
And it was just a phase
But what if what you did to me
Was wrong in all the ways?

October 4th

2010-10-04T14:53:00.000-07:00

The midnight's close and I can feel,
I swear,all of your pain
Tonight's darkness,it will reveal
The fact that we're insane

There's too much talk and too much hate
It's way simpler than that
But we all love to complicate
The fact that there's no fact

Searching for proof,struggling to win
The fights that we invent
The sun's too warm,the ice's too thin
The messages-all sent!

Talk unity and peace and love
Then look round and condemn
As long as we think we're above
We don't know shit 'bout them

We don't believe,we never trust
Our friend's word is in vain
The master plan-it is a must
'Cause we've all gone insane

Telepathy

2009-09-16T09:55:00.000-07:00

I cannot move my legs tonight
I cannot move my arms tonight
I’m safe here
Can only open my eyes to you
I see your face...You have no clue!
We’re safe here
Tonight

Just breathe me near and near me
Just hold on tight, we could be
The saviors of ourselves tonight
We’re safe here!
Crumbling through the past old fears
Ending together over the years
Just look at things that come and go
As people disappear

Don’t care about my legs tonight
Don’t care about my arms tonight
You’re safe here!
I only care that I can see
I’m seeing your face next to me and
We’re safe here
Tonight

I’ll watch your look, glad you’re here tonight
Your eyes, my heart, both say we might
Be safe here tonight
Hoping we’ll hold on tight to this…
Tonight

Daddy cool

2009-07-22T04:36:00.000-07:00

The closest person to my heart
Ever since I’ve seen the light
Look how it’s all falling apart
Before I can begin to fight

It’s true, and now I have no doubt
It’s all been part of my sweet youth
The truth will certainly come out
Just when it stopped being the truth

Fate has no mercy for the fact that I
Am trying so hard to be better
So kind, so calm like you I’ll try
To write my overall life letter

Idealistic picture in my mind
Contains you smiling in the front line
So disappointed, still so calm, so kind
and loving, I’m so lucky you’re mine

I’m such a child, I make mistakes
Barely outlined my very first steps
Searching the past, lesson one thousand one
A strong, big heart – it never breaks

So much like you, so close to me
I miss you the very next second
Your gentle eyes I cannot see,
Your kindness that I’ve always reckoned

Strange feeling...

2009-07-16T16:47:00.000-07:00

Not only that I left
But I also cried
Not only that it seemed
But it hurt inside

Not only that I'm mad
When my hair's a mess
But I'm really,really so sad
When my pleasure is your stress

Not only that you said you wanted
But I also heard
Not only that it was all for you
But that's what I preferred

Not only that I'll try to keep up
Guess I'll be less a kid
Not only don't I wanna grow up
But I'm so sad you did

Not only is this feeling new
But it is rarely strange
Not only for it's coming from you
But it's a drastic change

Not only that I needed it
But it made me feel you close
Not only that I lost it now
But it was overdose...

...for you...and I'm sorry

Self

2009-07-13T10:42:00.000-07:00

How come you've changed
so much
so fast?
How come you've come
to judge
the rest?
How come you care
less
every day
About people - and what they say?

How come you've left
yourSELF
behind?
How come not smiling
crossed
your mind?
How come you're stepping
every
day
On people - and on what they say?

How come you're stressed
a suddden
lot?
How come you've passed
through this
last shot?
How much attention do you pay
To people - and to what they say?

How come you're staying
late
tonight?
How come your dark
seems to be
light?
How come you're that
who won't
obey
To people - and to what they say?

'Cause all good things seem to undo
Feelings lost territory,too
'Cause the same things always hurt you
...These people... - ...and the things they do...

The Rain

2009-06-29T20:54:00.000-07:00

Such old, very old feelings
I'd tried to chase away
Have come back to their meanings
Because of you today

'Cause I've felt one step closer
Though you'd walked two steps back
'Cause I knew you'd go further
Were I to lose the track

Not facing feelings is a crime
But I wasn't too wise
And again,for the second time
I tried to close my eyes

But just one blink,and I could see
The light that you would spread
Before collapsing right between us
The stone wall had turned red...

Generation us

2009-04-21T11:32:00.000-07:00

In fact we’re so lost
Someone always pays the cost
But what happens when there’s no one left around?
We can talk,’cause we’re smart
But we did forget the part
Where life’s more than enjoying each sound

Think we can rule the world
Never trust what we’re told
Many plans, many words, but no facts
So quick to get old,
Unconsciously sold
Something concrete-maybe gleaning regrets

Time passes by
We’re flying so high
What is it that we’re leaving behind?
These glances aren’t rude
We only wish we could
Change the world with the thoughts in our mind.

Inside

2009-04-20T05:52:00.001-07:00

I fell asleep in my dream
You fell asleep by my side
I said before – To see I seem
But my eyes were half-opened wide

The peace inside I won’t forget
The moment I learned how to see
The things I do or don’t regret
Please live the(this) innocence with me

The will,the love,the sparkling fire
The looks,expressive smiles,the mood
Suppose they went down to the wire
Now would we find that bad or good?

Whenever I see people blinking,
Whatever gesture,things as such
The question is about the thinking
If it’s too little....or too much...

For me love,me

2009-03-31T09:01:00.000-07:00

But times have changed
And I have changed with them
And you have changed with them as well
Words simply arranged
Arranged this time only
Do we say good-night?Only time will tell

The curtain fell
And I have risen with it
And you have waited for the fall again
Nervous applause
And I have cried for it
And you're happy,'cause now I think I can

So weird,wild feelings
And I have lived with them
And you have tried to wash them all away
So far we've gone
And you're still here with them
And we've flowed 'cause nothing was in the way
{[meant to make one stay]}

Look at me,look at you
And you will surely see me
And I will see myself as well
Just sit and watch
But which part of you
And which of me will wait for time to tell?

..:)

2009-03-31T08:48:00.000-07:00

And it's because you took my hand
And felt that it's so right
And it's because you have decided
To fight for it that night

And it's because your smile was hiding
The things I love to hear
The dark is now no longer blinding
I have no fear

And it's because I feel like screaming
And running every here and there
And it's because I found a meaning
And there is nothing like your care

And it's because I've come to see
The happiness it brings
And it's because reality
's now nicer than the dreams

And it's because we lived today
And it was something so new
And it's because you are this way
...:)

Then

2009-03-31T08:42:00.000-07:00

I feel so safe!
So safe!
So safe around you
That's why I'm afraid to try
That's why I'm afraid to tell you
That's why I'm afraid I'll lie...
...again...
...I'm reaching out for your hand
I'm glad that you call me 'friend'
It seems so far everything's fine
But I forgot to raise mine
[so you can see...]
I'm running to you again
For once hold me,hold my hand
I'm happy here with you,my friend
I'm here again.
Can you tell,oh,can you tell from my eyes?
Could you watch,please watch with me the sunrise!
Can you feel what I'm feeling right now?
Wonder how...

','

2009-03-02T14:06:00.000-08:00

Maybe I don't see it 'cause it doesn't exist
Maybe it didn't come 'cause I did not insist
Maybe, oh , maybe you're so right
Maybe we also lost tonight....

; ; ;

2009-03-02T13:54:00.001-08:00

My thoughts are blurry when I think about it
I hate it!
I hate
that I can’t live without it!

Makes me sick when I think
I’ve come again to face it
I hate it!
I hate
that I can’t live without it!

Makes me wanna fly off – never forget to think of
how
I hate it!
I LOVE IT!
...we’re gone...

The before for tomorrow

2009-03-02T13:16:00.000-08:00

Who was I before?
How was I before?
How did I smile before?
Why did I cry before?
Before the dawn I was beyond
All of my dreams
-Behind the scenes-
before
the rising or the fall
before
I couldn’t see the small
Who was that ”me”
I don’t recall?
What did I cherish before?
Why do they perish
before
I can say so much more
I can learn so much more
I guess before
I had the time to waste
The present’s now.
.the aftertaste...

[...or the before for tomorrow]

...sau...?

2009-02-23T06:54:00.000-08:00

Ai spus ca sunt un inger
Acum ma vezi un drac
Sa fie oare ochiul,
Sau chiar eu m-am schimbat?
Sa fie oare totusi asa de neiertat?

Ai spus ca-nseamna totul
Doar sa ma vezi zambind
Si ti-am zambit continuu
Continuu am zambit
Sa-mi fi picat vreun dinte...sau oare ai mintit?

Ai spus si-ai repetat mereu
Ce-nseamna pentru tine
Sa graviteze-n lumea ta
O persoana ca mine
Si-acum de ce ti-e bine?

...sau oare ai mintit?...

...sa fie oare ochiul...

...sau...

Whatever you want

2009-02-16T09:09:00.000-08:00

Finally all your dreams came true
Watch them running after you
Feel them staring in your eyes
Stare back,quote your smartest lies

Can you watch this silent sound
Picking up hopes from the ground?
The deepest shadows – can you see
How far they are from you...from me?

It’s long,it’s short,it’s life-they say
It’s happy,sad,you choose your way
It’s not about the way it’s meant
Your drama’s not an accident

-Just learn to learn from everything-

Tonight

2009-01-30T15:14:00.001-08:00

I wonder if you ever miss me
The way I miss you
I wonder if you'll ever kiss me
'Cause I really want you to
Will you just take my hand
And feel that it's so right?
Will you fight for this tonight?

I wonder if you find it wrong
That this occured to me
I wonder if we could belong
To what this 'you and me' could be
Will you just look into my eyes
And know what I'm about to write?
Will you try this tonight?

I wonder if your smile is hiding
The things I'd love to hear
I wonder if this light is blinding
Or if it's yourself you really fear
I wonder if you wonder
That this is worth the fight
Hope you won't wonder anymore....
...tonight

Poate ca stim...

2009-01-28T22:13:00.000-08:00

Speri ca ce auzi nu e adevarat
Sperai sa fie asa cum ai visat
Dar nu te mintim -
Oare gresim?

Credeai ca lumea e un vis curat
Ca oamenii sunt asa cum tu i-ai creat
Dar noi n-o sa fim -
Oare gresim?

Crezi ca totul asa a evoluat
Numai cu critica si gand expirat
Aici n-o sa pasim -
Oare gresim?

Esti ce vrei sa fii-nimic mai adevarat
Pacat ca totu-i simplu,dar tu vezi complicat
Suntem ce vrem sa fim -
Oare gresim?

Te uiti in urma sa vezi de-ai fost uitat
Un fior apare-stii ca e-adevarat
Dar inca zambim -
Oare gresim?

Te-ntrebi daca vreodata ar putea fi aflat
Secretul de-a trai si-a simti mai curat
Inca zambim -
...

2009-01-26T08:20:00.000-08:00

There is no time at all
To think that you might fall
Just close your eyes and go
You'll be the first to know

Life gives you all the chances
The whole time at one call
Don't waste it on thinking
What happens if you fall

Time's so precious - all you've got
Be positive - it helps a lot
Smile and be the first to say
"I've been lucky all the way"

Sing your thoughts and live your dreams
Learn to fly and spread your wings
Follow your heart - it's for the best
Love your friends - smile to the rest :)

Story

2009-01-26T08:19:00.001-08:00

Lover boy has gone insane
Lover boy has lost his brain
Lover boy just can’t explain
Lover boy’s gone wild
Nasty girl cannot destroy
The perfect image of this boy
Nasty girl can be no toy
Nasty girl’s gone mild

In her mind he’s just the same
Although she can’t speak his name
Let this boy just feel no shame
And this girl roll her show
In love with such a memory
The image of what he could be
The person he wants her to see
She doesn’t want to know

Very sweet lies – the only thing
She needs- to take the truth they bring
But no words said,so just swing swing
And turn the music on
He’ll sit and watch”My name is Earl”
The world’s about to twist and twirl
But still he won’t forget the girl
That he stumbled upon

You watch her with nothing to do
Noticing how your feelings grew
You definitely have no clue
That I am watching you

Were you?

2008-12-29T02:52:00.000-08:00

Am I high or am I low?
Am I fast?Am I too slow?
Am I what you wanna find?
Am I tough?Am I too kind?

On my way to happiness
Am I right?Am I a mess?
Am I what you wanna see?
Are you really proud of me?

Are you here or am I late?
Is that you or is this fate?
Am I where I need to be?
Were you really watching me?

You're nearly high and barely low
Not going fast,still not too slow
You're what I really wanna find
A little tough but very kind

You're really here,I wasn't late
That's really you and this is fate
I'm really where I need to be
But were you really watching me?

2008-12-10T13:28:00.000-08:00

How does it feel to be
So close to the sky?
Somehow you couldn't touch it
And you're still asking why
The one thing you could say now
And be worst is 'good-bye'
But can you deny?Can you deny?
The last time I believed you
Was the last time you said
I looked back and understood
To what these words of yours led
And though my hopes were gone
And are still quite far away,
The next time I'll believe you
Is the next time you'll say...

Silence

2008-12-09T11:48:00.000-08:00

The silent hearts are beating
The youngest minds will rise
There's chance to be defeated
But time to realise

It's time to make decisions
And they are always tough
Though I'll be here forever
I hope it is enough

So watch this new beginning
Find time to realise
Silent hearts are still beating
The brightest minds will rise

Stardust

2008-12-03T09:56:00.000-08:00

Ochii imi sunt neschimbati
Verzi sau rosii,pastelati
Inauntru voi vibrati,
Sunete de ceara
Foarte clar te vad acum
Foarte mult am mers pe-un drum
Ce e nu e nicidecum
Pentru prima oara
Nu pot nici sa te privesc
Pentru ca nu reusesc
Privirea s-o stapanesc
Sa ma uit pe-afara
Am impresia ca tu vii
Am vointa de-a simti
Impreuna vom pasi
De la prima scara
De pe-un vechi gard am plecat
Inim-a accelerat
Am impresia ca ai stat
Si-ai vrut intaia oara...

Ded

2008-11-29T16:05:00.000-08:00

These dreams,they all sway
These tears are so cold
These memories are too far away
For me to hold
Don't go!
I can't learn to say 'no'

You're trying to tell me you do
-but you don't-
I'm trying to tell you I did
-but I won't-
Stay here!
I can't say it,but I want you near

This red light in your mind
Is my white the whole night
I can say that I'm laughing
But I don't - I just might
Don't go!
Forget about this 'no'

Too bad...

2008-11-29T16:04:00.000-08:00

You may not wanna hear
You may not wanna feel
You may not want me around you
But then why do u pretend?
In front of u I'll stand
Don't look as if you had no clue

Just watch me as I stare
I'll watch u 'cause I care
I have no choice but missing you
You keep saying that u're fine
You keep saying u're not mine
I swear I could have sworn that was true

What about growing up?
What about ego drop?
I am sure that occured to you
What about saying hi?
What about dropping by?
The beginning of something new

Questioning all my fears
My true love disappears
I'm still into what you left to me
No looking back,now I see
But it's weird that nobody
Is ever what you could have tried to be

II

2008-11-29T16:03:00.000-08:00

I refuse to lose
I refuse to play
Don't stay in my way
I'm not leaving
I am falling behind
Pretending not to be
Thanks for watching me
As I stop breathing

It's all in my head
Because I want it to be
The things that I notice
Are the things I wanna see
All that's good,all that's bad
Everything I wanna show
You'll decide what you do
But if you go pls don't let me know

Wonder...

2008-11-29T16:02:00.000-08:00

I've locked the door so good behind me
And left the key so that you might find me
I've drowned my hopes,I'm all alone
They're all gone
You're still gone
Come back home

Look at me collapsing
As you keep your eyes shut in the dark
Insecurity kills me
Go away,don't destroy me
Come back here,don't you show me no spark

You're different today
Will you be here tomorrow?
Will you do this my way?
Don't enjoy all the sorrow

We live to learn
We forget,we forgive
But will we for real
Ever learn to live?

At least I did...

2008-11-29T16:01:00.000-08:00

I woke up all alone today
Thought I'd find you on the way
-to the door-
Spent alone all of this time
To find out you were just what I
-was looking for-

But you can't see the pain
In a person's eyes
The first things we think of
When we love are lies

So why am I still here?
Why am I still crying?
Can't I disappear?
Can't you please stop lying?
[Why are you so cold?
Why are you everything I hold
...on to?]

Caught myself inside this dream
Realised I'm not what I seem
-to be-
The victim inside myself grew
That's just why there can't be you
-and me-

But how can you taunt
Me when I smile?
And how can I live
In such denial?

Why am I still here?
Why am I still crying?
Can't I disappear?
Can't you please stop lying?
[Why are you so cold?
Why are you everything I hold
...on to?]

I know you won't come
I know you won't ask
I know you don't care
But please don't take off your mask

I'm here because I love you
I'm here because I cried
I cannot live without you
I don't care if you lied
{Can't say good-bye}
[But please don't be so cold
Because you're everything I hold
...on to]

No , bye...

2008-11-29T15:59:00.000-08:00

So you've found your way home
Don't have to be there alone {anymore}
So you're ok with who you are
So you are shining like a star
So you are proud of what you are
So that's you!

{Thank you,thank you}
I really appreciate
{But no,thank you,thank you}
I won't remember this date
{Thank you,thank you}
You showed me your smile's a fake
And I'll learn from my mistake

So this is it,you're happy now
So you've forgotten my face somehow
So I will smile and wave goodbye
So I won't have to ask you why
'Cause this is you and you never lie
Good-Bye!

Don't ever come back
I'll never look back

Gone...

2008-11-29T15:57:00.000-08:00

I'll miss no smile,I'll miss no kiss
Your touch,your scent,No,I won't miss
I'm moving on,No looking back
I've run away,Please lose my track
Say no good-bye,We'll meet again
Just I won't see you As I did then
My thoughts about you Were so wrong
I guess I've lied To myself all along
Excuses led my way -and-
Denials made me stay -but-
Tonight you look so pale
I think you're about to fail
You are so common,don't know why
The path you showed me I chose to take
Your positivity surprised me,though
Your positivity's a fake

Poate...

2008-11-29T15:56:00.000-08:00

[Ma prefac sau chiar nu stiu
Poate-o sa afli mai tarziu
{mai tarziu} dar poate
Departe am sa fiu ]

Poate te cunosc,poate nici nu as vrea
Poate nu-ti cer nimic-Oare sa-ti cer ceva?
Nu stiu...O sa afli mai tarziu
Cand departe am sa fiu

Poate daca ma intorc te-ntorci si tu
Poate chiar ma voi intoarce-sau poate nu
Nu stiu...Lasam pe mai tarziu
Cand poate-aici am sa fiu

Poate-am sa te strig,poate nu vei auzi
Poate lacrimile tale pe fata-mi vor siroi
Nu stiu...Imi vei spune mai tarziu
Cand poate-acasa am sa fiu

Poate fiindca ai plecat cand ti-am zis sa mai stai
Poate ma vei cauta sperante sa-mi mai dai
Nu stiu...Acum e prea tarziu...
Sa mai stiu unde-am sa fiu

Hai...

2008-11-29T15:55:00.000-08:00

Hai sa fugarim impreuna un vis
Sa ne-ajunga el din urma,sa-i zicem
ca am decis
Sa intram numai acolo unde scrie
INTERZIS
Si sa facem doar opusul la tot ce
le-am promis

Vantul o sa ne asculte
Cum radem in gand
Si gandul o sa rada de
Ce s-a pierdut in vant
O sa-ti scriu o scrisoare
De pe malul celalalt
O sa ti-o trimit prin soare
Ti-o va topi pe asfalt

Hai sa ne ascundem de un nou apus
Sa il urmarim pe furis pana-a ajuns
Sa se tramsforme in zi
Sa ne vada copii
Sa stea apoi in loc
Sa ne lase langa foc

Si totul are acum alt sens
Nu vreau sa dau explicatii
La ce nu am inteles

Si timpul s-a oprit demult
Asteapta o minune
Sa o ia de la-nceput

Long time ago...

2008-11-29T15:53:00.000-08:00

This old street still calls your name
I think I love you- it's not the same
Separate my skin from bones
I'll be playing The Ramones

I'll be home and I'll be high
Give me wings,teach me to fly
Call my name and I'll be there
Say "I love you" and "I swear"

Hold me in your arms so tight
Teach me what is wrong and right
Ask me if I wanna go
And my answer will be no

Take me 'Somewhere I belong'
'My sweet shadow' is now wrong
Write me e-mails...at least letters
And I swear 'Nothing else matters'